Another man in a restaurant
talks about the waitress to his friend. “ I’d love
to paint her.” he said it with devout desire, not with the
desire for sexual conquest but for a full creative engagement
with beauty and intimacy.
These sentiments are the blessings and enemies of women trying
to achieve identity within the sum of their parts. It is the search
for their own authenticity – core self that embodies the
values and loyalties for which they stand when the false self
is confronted. Beauty fades but the soul goes on forever, which
frees a women from all form and no substance to a humanized soul
free from bondage to fear and hope. The warrior consciousness
and the eternal being are developed. If the legend of the Huldra
is one of sexual prediction and seduction what does that say about
the seduced? Who makes the final choice? Is it the seducer or
the seduced? Why are women always the vessel for blame? The Huldra
archetype challenges both men and women to examine their motivation
and intent.
Huldra’s cow tail dropping off after she has seduced the
unsuspecting man into marriage is a metaphor for men feeling castrated
or unmanly with the loss of the bachelor’s virility after
committing to the monogamy of marriage. He is no longer the stud
sowing his oats in any receiving field. Being married can be a
metaphor for being a symbolic eunuch trapped in a life of servitude
to your bride and family often without all of the sex and love
making that was wished for or expected. This reflects the opposites
in human nature.
In this age of anxiety a major psychoanalytic dilemma has been
women being a seductive, alluring temptress and a castrating virgin
at the same time. Women communicate an impression of being unnerved,
even vulnerable, yet there is the notion of women or of eroticism
as frightening. Lovemaking and climax have often been referred
to as the little murderers or little deaths in Europe. The woman
is the vessel for this phenomenon. In the same act she institutes
life and death.
These words are often spoken with regard to rape or incest “She
deserved it. Everything about her made me want her.” If
you are perceived as attractive men think you must want them.
It is kind of a justification for the uncontrolled desire of the
penis. Then it becomes the women’s shame. “ You have
shamed the family.” There is no truth telling, as the female
becomes the predator instead of the victim. Her throat is sealed
off in the shame that is sealed with the secrets of patriarchal
opposition and oppression.
A contention can be made that all evil stems from man’s
constant effort to hide his animal nature. He tried to hide it
with clothing, with abstract ideas, with
religions, with plastic and metal extensions of his ego. To admit
he is an animal, with sexual and excretory functions of an animal,
would be to admit that he would one-day die. Death is the unspeakable
secret underlying censorship and repression. The deniers of life,
the censors of art, the repressors of sex- they are the same ones
who support wars, applaud violence, clamor for executions and
walk and talk in fear. Fear has already killed them, the fear
of showing pain or pleasure, the fear of exhibiting anything to
the world but a buttoned-down, plasticized facade of unfeeling
self-containment. It is easy to turn the machine guns on their
fellow creatures, because they see themselves and their fellow
creatures as odorless, sexless, plastic manikins, mere embodiments
of a variety of abstractions. What ever unsettles this view must
be suppressed.
There is a sense of enormous power of inner rage. Many women
feel angry at the denial of woman’s power that seems essential
to most religious groups. There is a denial of her body and the
great mystery of conception and birth that became the miracle
of the fathers in the immaculate conception. They are angry that
men shun, yet long for their breasts and bellies. This is a tragic
assault to the soul dignity of women through exploitation and
commercialization of female sexuality. Modern women especially
absorb media images and other stereotypes of dehumanizing sexuality.
Sexual-humiliation for entertainment is abhorrent yet there is
several television shows and movies based on just this. Why are
they popular and tolerated? Charlie Chaplin said in the movie
The Kid, “ The woman, whose only sin is motherhood.”
Huldra is the radiant darkness behind the light. She breaks through
the conditioned beliefs to help you discover your own female animal
wildness. Your savage wildness is perfected. In serenity she will
wait through the gestational period of your self-discovery and
support your efforts. Every woman has her fatal flaws, such as
the huldra’s cow tail. However, that is designed to make
her clever, adaptable, directed, and set her eye on the goal.
She teaches you to see things in a larger scope and in silent
gestation. Great distances seem to separate the male and the female.
But we are all one with an etheric patterning for each expression.
This led me to the Caduceus and ultimately to the concept of
unconditional love. The kind of love where you do not have to
receive love back to be able to give love. It is a mother’s
love, but not exclusively. We all have access to it. The Caduceus
represents a bridge between the masculine and feminine and the
eternal play of opposites they represent. At one level this play
can be seen operating as sexuality, at another as political process,
at another as the emerging of consciousness beyond polarity, time
and space, when the divine awakens in the human heart. Then the
shape shifting but predictable cycle of the caduceus embraces
the paradox of continuity within change. The human bodies DNA
strands and the Charka system have the same patterning. The winged
staff of Mercury represents the simultaneous ascent and descent
of the channel of connection, which abstracts the nature of universal
energies. These energies have the power to unify the masculine
and the feminine, the body and the spirit, they become a healing
force and teaching element. Huldra embodies the reconciliation
in an objective fashion, which enables the couple to see through
the blockages of imprinted behavior of the previous male and female
generations. This interaction creates a spiraling process of transformation,
into clarity, essence and realization, until a state is born beyond
duality. This is why women and men who recognize this seek each
other at all costs when their connection is clear and remain together
for a lifetime or more.
Dr. Nelson Soucasaux, a Brazilian gynecologist has written a
book on the symmetric patterns in the female genitals called The
female sex organs: Shape, Function, Symbol and Archetype. He calls
attention to the existence of beautiful, perfect and very curious
symmetric patterns in the woman’s sexual organs. From a
metaphysical point of view these patterns seem to reflect fundamental
principals and laws of nature and existed not only in the uterus
but also in the entire female genitalia. It may constitute more
indication of the existence of something more transcendental energetically.
The main pattern of symmetry is known as the axial symmetry, which
is recognized as the longitudinal middle line of the body seen
at the antero-posterior position. In women, this straight longitudinal
line coincides exactly with the uterus and the vagina. The way
through which the myometrial smooth muscle fibers are arranged
along the uterus gives rise to a double spiral system of “lines
of force” that symmetrically entwine and embrace themselves
around the uterine cavity. Each one of the myometrial muscles
originating in the Fallopian tubes and greatly facilitates the
propagation of the contractile waves along the uterus. The uterus
has a structural organization characterized by a virtual cavity
the shape of a downward pointed triangle surrounded by double
descending spiral of muscle fibers symmetrically entwined, forming
a perfect system of “ lines of force.”
These lines of force are also associated with magnetic field
lines as introduced by Michael Faraday. Faraday, felt that space
containing magnetic “ lines of force” was no longer
empty but acquired certain physical properties. Faraday’s
colleague James Clerk Maxwell, fleshed out these ideas with equations
that are the cornerstone of electromagnetic theory.
The Earth’s magnetic field portrays a symmetrical hemisphere
towards the Sun that deflects the Solar Wind around the Earth.
At both poles there is a cusp that exists due to the magnetic
lines of force. Mother Earth’s ancient energies are said
to contain ley lines that are best described as invisible lines
of power in the earth. Ley Lines were re-discovered by Alfred
Watkins in the 1920’s, who associated them with the Roman
God Mercury, the winged messenger whose staff is the symbol for
caduceus.
For these reasons I have chosen to paint my first abstract vibrational
watercolor. The two symbols of the myometrial fibers and the caduceus
intertwined epitomize the Huldra essence.
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